Echoes.

1.  It sucked that Michael Jackson died on the same day as Farrah Fawcett.  I really think his body should have had more consideration.  yes.  I am actually irritated about this – she died with dignity after a period of suffering.  He died suddenly and the newspapers can cover NOTHING ELSE.  Not that I think Farrah’s family should have been bombarded with the press, so maybe it’s a mixed blessing, but I think she deserves a bit more than a wave and a ‘holla’.

2.  I don’t really understand why wedding blogs never feature ugly brides.  I mean, I get that ugly brides aren’t exactly sellers, but at the same time, there are those of us out there – the girls with the ‘great personality’ and ‘such a pretty face’ that would really like to see ourselves represented among the weddings of style and fun.  Skinny Minnie with her never-ending budget and flat ass simply don’t inspire.  Show me that I can be beautiful too – in terms other than simply because I’m radiant and in love.  Barf.

3.  Work is weighing on me.  I simply don’t understand how someone can avoid asking for my help then get angry when I’m unable to catch up mentally when they try to sum up the problem for me.  And that’s really all I can say.  Dang it, I need a venting space.

4.  Knee is still working on me.  So is the ankle.  I love that I’m so graceful.  Love that I’ve been unable to workout for two weeks now.  Love that I’m going to have to play catch up.  Love that I really want fried chicken for dinner.
I won’t have it.  But it sounds GOOD.

5.  Nick’s coming down in a few weeks for counseling/engagement party.  This should be somewhat interesting, as I am going to wear a dress and I’m still fat.  I think he’s still looking for that magic pill for me.  Krista found it – I want it too.  Not really, but sometimes it would be good to have an easy button.  I’m getting excited about the wedding, but can’t help but think that I’m too young to get married.  That’s this week’s version of cold feet.  Too young.  at 29.  Then again, I’m not entirely sure why I’m not living at home, playing on swing sets and napping after school anymore.  So perhaps this is just one of those periods in my life where I look in the mirror and am surprised at the age of the person staring back at me.

6.  My grandmother is moving to Florida in August.  I find this annoying, as I’ve had her around my entire life, am incredibly close to her, and don’t feel sorry for the family that moved away from her.  They got to keep my grandfather – why can’t I keep Mamaw?  I recognize the hypocrisy of this statement considering, but it doesn’t make me feel it any less.

7.  I’ve a hankering for milk glass recently.  I’m not sure why – it appeals to my need for cleanliness and classiness.  But.  I don’t have any.  I need to have more money.  and milk glass.  I wonder if it would be weird to register for an entire collection on a whim.

8.  I miss my Granny.  My sister and her family are moving into Gran’s house – which is next door to my parents.  I envy her that.  I envy several people lots of things at the moment, even though my life is good.   It’s complicated.  I wish it weren’t nearly as much as it is.  I wish things happened because they were right.
But life isn’t fair and that’s why.  The right doesn’t happen.  I guess because so many people get to define right on Earth out of free will.  Not quite as many judges in Heaven.  That’s good, I suppose.  Well, definitely good, but I sometimes wish I could make sure that the good ones – like Abbey – were taken care of on Earth as well as Heaven.
But we get no assurances.
Well, rainbows.  And that’s good – I probably wouldn’t make much of a boat builder.